A Disciple's Thread

[Candy]

go into their office

otherwise thers help cnter that give you a translator fro mental health section, and they do all paper work

[NoNun2]

I’ll go to a lawyers office so they see I can still function normal and not lying… I’m just scared that since the psychs purge files every 7 years that they’re out of statutes my first malpractice was in 2010… maybe 91

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I report it to the police with cuts and bruises and dna and they just don’t even check and throw me in psych

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My hometown police investigated but that’s the only one that did

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And I had it wrong so it’s going to be really hard to prove I think

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I still have an unpaid parking ticket from the night of the attack and there is no statutes in South Carolina on sex crimes so I MAY have a shot of getting us (mentally ill) justice

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I thought I was a vampire some how and that’s why I was bleeding black… wonder where that came from?!?????

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Some of them are sicker then we are…

[NoNun2]

Our anniversary is 6/30 I think

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Loved it too… death row… they were hard on me but kept me my best

[NoNun2]

Don’t make me cry I’m already emotional

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I miss my dad so much… he’s the only one who knew how to fix me

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I’m a go on vacation tomorrow and finally wear that bikini from 3 years ago

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I need some healing time

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If I don’t eat it we all go down… I’ll take that too… FUCK YOU

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My mom technically

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Who made less than her… bitch make a thousand a week no car rent $400 and the it out lies she racked in my name for like $5k somewhere the fuck her money go… why my mom for to pay it?

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Dumb ass bitch and once again I can’t do shit about it

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I can’t stand spoiled privy bitches for real… even if they are black

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You see where we live right?

[NoNun2]

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I can’t even comprehend speaking to him right now

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I don’t want my daughter to be a soldier… I want her safe and happy

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I got accepted into the centre but u didn’t get a scholarship and the aaawrs were frozen and my parents couldn’t afford it

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Assets were frozen*

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I don’t want to dance anymore anyway since tripping in inpatient

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Honestly… it was the scariest movie I ever saw

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Now I know why

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Yeah I bought them toe shoes but it hurt too much to go up… I’m a practice though maybe

[NoNun2]

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I have a daughter not son

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Nah like I saw I just post that… I don’t like them pre stepping me… it keeps me in some hell

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How do I cash out… like runners Rick Ross ie book bag… do I ever get paid? Or was it all for the stories?

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All I ever do is feel stupid… I’m good… I’m used to it

[NoNun2]

Fuck it all pac.. idc I just don’t want to stop talking to you

[NoNun2]

Soldiers, that is what we are – who cares if they say we live our lives behind bars
Something unattainable can be obtained, for our seeds to be maintained
We give our lives too, and don’t judge a name of a man you never met
And in your heart, you feel the beat, a reminder to never forget
The double edged sword of master trickery – who can be him… You, me, or he?
To those who have fallen we tip our bottles in homage, a last piece of bread,
For an offering, a reminder on their grave stones instead.
We recognize eyes to distinguish our alibis
And we will tell lies if it confuse them with the truth
Tattooed and scarred - reminders of our troubled youth
We whisper in the whims of the night to each other
And no matter what - we stand brother to brother
We mastermind in dreams and send a glitter through the eye
While those un-afflicted sit back and judge us on why
Chained to a destiny with no way out but death
Loyalty sealed with confirmation of last breath
Adrenaline that runs so deep, sometimes for 24 hours
With appetites for destruction that slowly devours
In us, we never cower… true to thy selves we behold the ultimate power
The Vikings, they call it Valhalla, at the table where the Judaists break challah
It is a place where we are freed from persecution of who we are to be
Rewarded, cause in ourselves we stayed true… the ultimate test of loyalty.

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It’s hard being a soldier when they diss you for fighting like a boy

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They ran my brother out of state when I was 15 - he made damn sure he taught me how to fight first though

[NoNun2]

I can belly to this… it’s dancing with chains trying to convince a man or woman to break you free

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I love the dance just too insecure and shy right now

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That’s funny at the store I saw the Pontiac version of my old drop and then today my I saw identical skye to my old one

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I’m sad they’re not making standards anymore… I love dancing driving with the stick shit too

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I LOVE cars… new cars only though )

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My best friend was a boy when I was a baby and I grew up on match box with the plastic road maps or the garages

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Yes I could always dance to rap better then R&B go figure

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I used to LOVE the clubs down south when little Jon or equivalent come on too… like stomp dance

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The best party ever… I was on a date with this guy bj and we in the country and he tell me to turn down this dirt road and I got scared but past the driveway was all these abandon buildings and cars with rims and one of the funnest parties I ever been too… down south boys serious though… they bout it more than we are up north and make me nervous

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3kinfe with 50 and Ti got my license suspended for an entire year I got pulled speeding like 90 something - I get hype to it

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3 kings*

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It’s why I never fucked around down south… the laws too strict… I’m in court for the summons for speeding and I watched the judge send a kid to jail for 30 days cause he had a DIME BAG… when it was my turn I was like lawyer please - I didn’t think it was that serious but they suspended my shit and gave me a permit for a year

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To be honest it worked… I hardly speed by accident anymore though

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Yes me and my hell mate are officially over

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I’m sad but what ever

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Accusing me of posting shit when I’m in lake George with no wifi - I think people have cat phish accounts under me

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Lab right though… he makes me smile and my hell mate make me cry… I rather date a ghost and show him the respect too - cause I never knew he must’ve felt like I never did

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Pac and Jicera are sacred to me

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Sooo… one person by one poem… I have 13 days to pay off these credit cards pleaseeeeeeee

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I just want to support MYSELF again like I been doing since I was 16

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You don’t know how it feels and I hate taking money from my mom

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I swear to GOD I have no clue clue and finally get it like 15 years too late

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I understand why he’s been there and what he was trying to tell me

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So was my ghost really throwing bottles in someone’s studio after the attack? I had that dream

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I cited my work and posted videos saying as such… is 10% therapy free fair?

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Therapy fee*

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I rather write than do hair but I actually rather still do both

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I suck but I just need my ah hah moment and I’ll be good again

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Like order of operations my 5th time trying to pass algebra like ohhhhhh and I got an A (it was a prerequisite so I’m lucky it didn’t go against my gpa

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I’ve was remedial math since like 3rd grade me and numbers don’t mix

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I even fuck up counting money and where I spend it and that’s how they get and got me so much

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I was fine as cashier though… but my drawer was off a lot

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No more then a few dollars so my boss didn’t care he loved me and would hire me back during the summers I’d visit

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I’ve been back and forth between ct and nc since I was like 15

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I HATE THE SOUTH

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Probably cause I already got sent there when I was punished - but I loved my father TO DEATH… my dad really was cool as fuck and sometimes I wonder if I was the only one to realize and appreciate that

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We’d play poker with his friends once a month and he could even tell when I was bluffing or had a serious hand

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It’d be funny when he folded

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I had a straight flush once and my sister stood behind me and said holy shit and everyone folded I was SO mad lol

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Hold ‘em but I can’t play with the extra decks at the casino… Spanish 21 my favorite game

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If I have to entertain my self that’s easy but it does cost money

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As vain definition just popped up on my phone… hardly and what does it even matter if you feel good? Its not like I ever in my life put someone else down

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I know I’m just a little above average… how’s that vain?

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I dress in baggy sweats and no one knows I got a body too… how is that vain?

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FOH vain

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If you’re feeling insecure with me posting selfies than maybe you’re the one caught up in how people look not me

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Why do my selfies make you so mad for real though?

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And I can be ugly as fuck the same… one time I came out of mental and pulled the mirror down and SCREAMED

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I looked so ugly I didn’t even recognize myself so it goes both ways

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Believe me I know I’m ugly too

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Usually and only as needed if I can please get my natural flow back

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You bitches play too much acting like gods and I ain’t fucking with none of you